:: I LOVE YOU ::

Assalamualaikum..WBT

Mungkin ini cara untuk aku meluahkan... 

Mungkin untuk kali yang terakhir...

Mungkin ke..?? CC: MHN

I Love You – by Najwa Latif

Mungkin kita pernah rasa tentang cinta,
Yang takdirnya bukan untuk kita,

Mungkin ini adalah cara meluah cinta,
Tanpa berkata atau berpandang mata,

Mungkin aku mencintaimu walaupun engkau tak pernah tahu,
Mungkin aku mencintaimu tanpa lelah atau pun jemu,

I’m sorry but I love you,
I’m sorry if I miss you,
Even if I can’t have you,
You know I’ll always be there for you.

Mungkin kita tak bersama di takdirkan,
Tak mengapa asal kau bahagia,

Biar aku mencintaimu biar tiada siapa yang tahu,
Biar aku mencintaimu dalam diam ataupun bisu,

I’m sorry but I love you,
I’m sorry if I miss you,
Even if I can’t have you,
You know I’ll always be there for you.
I’m sorry but I love you..

Onlyme...

Not Feeling Well (Part III)

Assalamualaikum... WBT

Today is my day 2 warded in the Kelana Jaya Medical Centre. I'm going to tell the world that.. yeah.. my CT scan results yesterday was NORMAL. I repeat, NORMAL. Ho yeahhhh...
I wanna go home (buat2 homesick.. hahahaha). Actually, I need to be alone yaw (sometimes)...

Anyway, to be honest, doctor actually rasa pelik sebab aku punya frontal sinus very clear aka normal la. Takde shows any blockage or anything. Alhamdulillah.. Itu yang aku nak.. Thank you Allah coz makes  everything goes well. Aku diuji oleh-Mu dan aku terima semua seadanya. Thank you again.

Today, seen by Dr Samril again.. allow to be discharge. Alhamdulillah syukur. 

Onlyme

My Very First Ukulele..Yeaa

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Alhamdulillah.. Tercapai jugak hasrat nak beli Ukulele. 
Even though i didn't know how to play it, but InsyaAllah.. I will try..

The one that i bought is a model from US, which is called KALA brand. I bought it from Sunway Pyramid, the one and only guitar shop.They even offered a guitar, ukulele, and drums lesson. Wow.. it sounds exciting, but i can't join the lesson. hmmm...

The model that i bought it cost around RM528, but they gimme 10% discount and the bag cost me around RM65. The Ukulele is a very nice color which I will attach the picture later. Do check it out yo..

So, i have to take an initiative to learn from basic.. how? Maybe, youtube or I should explore more about it.. ya.. Just wait and see.. If I fail to learn, I will throw inside my store room.. hahahaa..

Onlyme

Not Feeling Well (Part II)

Assalamualaikum...WBT

Nak sambung cerita lagi.
Arini pegi keje macam biasa. Subuh tadi masa sujud yellow fluid tu keluar lagi dari hidung aku. 
Lepas sembahyang aku terus capai tissue sebab dah meleleh sampai dagu. Tissue tu aku simpan sebab aku nak jumpa doktor jap lagi kat tempat keje, aku nak tunjuk kat dia. Kepala pun rasa tak sedap jek.

Sampai office, aku on PC and terus pegi klinik. Lebih kurang pukul 7:20 aku dah melanguk kat clinic. Malas nak jumpa lambat-lambat. Ok, aku masuk dalam, jumpa doctor, aku explain dengan doctor cerita dr last night bagi dia faham. Than dia pun start checking my nose, taking my medical history. To be frank aku tak pernah ada medical history apa-apa pun sebelum ni. Ok, and to be honest, she quite surprise bila aku tunjuk tissue yang aku bawak ada kesan mucous yang keluar tu. Sebab warna yellow tu, bright. She said that she never seen that type of mucous before this (bright yellow and not sticky). Normally, its kinda like sticky, greenish or grayish a bit.

She refer me to see an ENT specialist. Aku tak nak, but kena pegi jugak lah to rule out any consequences. adehh..

Around 10.30am, i left office with a referral letter and went straight to Kelana Jaya Medical Centre (KJMC). Alhamdulillah, not many patient.. less than 5 minutes aku dah dipanggil masuk. Doctor yang aku jumpa ni nama dia Dr Samril. He is a malay doctor, very friendly. Hilang sekejap nervous aku. So, aku bagi lah referral letter tu kat dia suh dia baca sndr jek.. I show him also the tissue yang ada kesan mucous tadi, dia pun quiet surprise.. Ok takpe.. Nervous! Sebenarnya aku nervous sebab dia nak jolok nasal probe masuk dalam nostril aku tu jap lagi, for sure. Scary bak hang.. Huhuhuu.. Dulu-dulu aku assist doctor, sekarang, aku pulak jadi pesakit.. I don't believe this, but this is REALITY!! Wake up Sha!! You're not dreaming. But this Dr Samril is very gentle.. Alhamdulillah, I'm still alive.. hahahaa

Ok, tak abes lagi.. Lepas check nostril aku tu, than dia cakap dengan aku, kena buat CT scan. Aku ternganga dan dengan pantas aku jawab, taknak doc. Nak wat pe.. Kenapa dengan saya ni.. Sy ok jek.. Aku resah gelisah, Allah je yang tau. Tp dalam resah tu aku sempat sengih lagi la.. Doc kata, kena buat sebab to rule out, kenapa keluar yellow fluid tu. It could be frontal sinussitis. Tetapi, aku takde history or even symptoms shows yang aku ada sinusitis. Kan ke hairan tu.. Adoiiyaii. 
Doc ckp suh admit on Monday, buat ct scan, based on the result, kalau perlu kena surgery. Lagi la aku ternganga.. Apakah!!! Aku laju jek cakap dengan doc, aku tak nak. aku takut, kenapa sampai nak surgery bagai.. I don't want, i'm so scared to death. Uwaaaa... (to be honest, org dalam medical line ni sebenarnya lagi kalut kalau sebut nak kena surgery ke, scan ke, MRI ke, seriously). Owh NO!!!

So, itu lah cerita aku sebenarnya...
Tunggu episode akan datang. (dalam hati aku Allah jek yang tau).

Ya Allah, Ya Rabbi, Ya Rahim..
Permudahkanlah segala urusan hamba-Mu ini Ya Allah. (Takut cam nak nangis sebenarnye)...

P/S: Highly recommended to see this doctor, he is very gentle, funny and good.

Onlyme

Not Feeling Well

Assalamualaikum..WBT

Ada benda nak cerita sikit arini..

Beberapa hari lepas, bila waktu sujud masa sembahyang, aku rasa kepala aku bahagian kanan ni rasa macam ada pressure. Rasa sakit sangat bila waktu wujud tu. 2 hari berturut aku rasa sakit masa sujud tu, tapi bila bangun terus hilang. Kelmarin aku dah tak rasa sakit pulak, tapi lepas lunch aku rasa macam nak sakit kepala. Nak bukak mata pun cam malas jek.

Nak dipanjangkan lagi cerita, tadi masa tengah sembahyang maghrib, ruku' ke 2 aku rasa hidung kanan aku macam gatal2. Beberapa kali jugak aku gosok hidung aku. Hilang khusyuk sembahyang aku.. Allah.

Ok, pastu, lepas sujud terakhir, aku bangun, tetiba aku rasa hidung kanan aku berair. Aku pun gosok dengan kain telekung sebab rasa nak meleleh. Abes jek sembahyang and doa, aku still rasa hidung kanan ni tak berapa nak selesa. Aku amek tisu, lps tu aku pelik sebab kenapa fluid yang keluar tu kuning, selalu colourless. Hairan.. aku semakin hairan. Hati dah mula rasa tak sedap and fikir yang bukan-bukan. Aku ape lagi, capai laptop and Google terus tentang yellow fluid from the nose. 

Result yang keluar memang bermacam-macam.... tapi aku cube berfikiran positive. Cool la..
Aku cube buat-buat sujud 2 kali, ya, aku dapat rasa fluid tu meleleh lagi keluar. Aku taknak mention apa yang aku jumpa dalam google sebab kadang-kadang google ni bukan leh caya sangat pun, kalau nak tau google la sendiri. Bermacam-macam yang kau orang akan jumpa nanti. Ape yang encik google cerita, aku tak boleh nak confirmkan sebab aku tak jumpa doctor lagi. Esok baru aku gi jumpa sebab aku malas nak keluar memalam ni.

Aku rilex, cuba tenangkan and tenteramkan hati, pegi makan, tapi aku rasa lauk yang aku makan tu aku telan terus, nasi ayam yang sedap tapi aku tak dapat nikmati macam biasa sebab kepala aku fikir macam-macam. Paranoid pun ada rasanya.

Sambung lagi..

Aku solat isya' pulak lepas tu. Aku nak tengok, keluar atau tak fluid tu nanti. berdebo-debo hati aku.

iye... masa aku ruku' lagi aku dah start rasa tak selesa kat kepala aku. Bila aku mula sujud aku rasa dah semacam. Sujud kali ke dua aku bangun trus aku rasa air dari hidung kanan tu keluar and meleleh sampai mulut aku. aku cepat-cepat lap guna telekung. Sampaila aku abes sembahyang, setiap kali sujud, aku bangun mesti meleleh. Lepas sembahyang aku tengok kain telekung aku dah sana sini kuning. 

Ya Allah.. Dugaan btl. Aku pasti Allah sayangkan aku sebab tu dia menguji aku. Aku redha Ya Allah. Semoga aku di beri kekuatan dan ketabahan di dalam menerima ujian yang kau beri ini. Amin.

Onlyme

Honesty, Trust & Love

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Honesty?
What is honesty?
Honesty for me means (in a relationship) more to sincerity. Because no one like lies, including me.
But, unfortunately, being dishonest with others and ourselves is sometimes easier than telling the truth. It doesn't need to be that way, though.
If you asks me, i will say, "You don't have to lie if you feel good about yourself! Surround yourself with caring, understanding people who will respect you for who you are."

I am sick with Dishonest people! To be frank, i hate this type of people.
Why??
Is it really hard to become someone with sincerity and honest?
Ask yourself!

If you asks me..
"I don't want perfect relationship, because perfect is impossible. I just want trustworthy, honest, loyal and love...
I love imperfection. I don't want perfect, I want worth it...
I love the look in people eyes when they realize they're in love.
Honesty is just too beautiful to ever put into words".

Without Honesty, happiness will never come to those who fail to appreciate all that they already have.

Besides honesty, how about TRUST?
Yes, trust! First, you have to trust yourself before put your trust to others.
Because, trust take years to build, second to break and forever to repair (great quote)
You have to remember, when someone break your trust, don't feel stupid for trusting them. You didn't do anything wrong. They're just an untrustworthy person. You deserve a better person than this. 
Another quotes that i love is, "Trust is like an eraser, it gets smaller and smaller after every mistake". 

Lastly, LOVE...
Without Honesty and Trust, there will be no Love at all..
In a relationship, honesty and trust must exist. If they don't there is no point of loving, so if you can't afford to be honest, stay single. 

Don't drag me in the bloody hell relationship.
It sounds related, but up to you to judge..

Onlyme